I found out Tuesday that there is a 98% chance that I will not be moving back to Logan until January. The news came as quite a blow...I have been an emotional wreck for 2 days. I honestly could not control my tears. I have been fighting all summer to be able to go back. First, the deal was, if I sold my housing contract at my old place, I could live somewhere cheaper. That was a task in and of itself. But I finally got it sold. And I was SO excited. I was going to be living by some good friends and it was going to be so great...I was planning on it being the best year I have had at Utah State. School was still up in the air...I was waiting on a lot of factors, but it turned out that I would not be going to school. I was OK with that...I would just work in Logan fall semester and start again in January. Well. Today I found out that my last 2% chance was gone and I will for sure not be moving tomorrow. It has been really really hard on me. My family is getting tired of me being depressed an crying.
So. My new attitude is POSITIVE THINKING. Everyone keeps telling me that there is a reason for what is happening. And I am going to try to see it from that point of view. My silver lining to this whole freaking crappy mess is that I will be able to watch Caitlin play volleyball this season. I rarely get to see her play, so I am excited to watch her during her senior year.
Hopefully, this fall brings some stability to my life. Everybody pray that I can find a job...
