well. it's been a cool minute since i have posted anything. wanna know why? unemployment=boring life. yep. i still haven't found a job. it is really starting to take a toll on me. the frustrating thing is that i haven't even had any bites. i have had ONE interview since i have lost my job. ONE. i really have no idea what is going on. every single job that i have applied for is one that i am more than qualified for (with a few that i know i am nowhere near qualified for, but i apply anyway). seriously i really don't know what is happening or why i haven't found anything. i have a good resume, i have a good cover letter. so what is my problem? it's a real kicker to my self esteem. i am trying to stay positive by telling myself that it just means the job i am supposed to have hasn't come along yet, but that gets difficult sometimes. oh well. guess i'll just keep chugging along.
on a different note, i have committed to run in the Red Rock Relay in moad next may. whyyyyyyy you may ask. the answer--i have no idea. actually it is because i am desperate to see my bestest friends from high school who are all running. brit lives in oklahoma and rosey lives in california, and both are coming to run. so i committed to running it. which means i have committed to making huuuuuuge fool of myself. i hope no one is there to video tape...
besides teaching myself to run (that's right. i have to teach myself to run because i hate it so much that i refuse to do it), i am making a healthy lifestyle change. i'm trying to eat healthier and be more active. and today, I WORE MY SKINNY PANTS. not my skinny-legged jeans. but my skinny pants that i got like 3 years ago. yep. i think that deserves a round of applause.
i am getting excited for christmas. just like the song says--it's the most wonderful time of the year! i looooooove christmas. it makes me happy. and as much as i hate unemployment, i am glad that it did happen this time of year. it gives me a lot of time to soak in the all the wonderfulness that is around me. i'm even throwing an ugly sweater party this year. it is going to be the social event of the season. yep. i am getting excited.
i do have to say though, that as much as a i loooooooooove the holidays, it is a hard time for me. it really just reminds me of how lonely i am. i am 24 years old and painfully single. i want someone to go to all of those holiday parties and to see the lights at temple square with and to buy presents for and to kiss under the mistletoe and to have a date for new years eve and all of the rest of the fun stuff. instead i am left trying to come up with excuses as to why i can't go out with my coupled/engaged/married friends and praying that none of my other single friends find a significant other...don't judge me for wanting others to be unhappy too. :)
so for now i guess i will just spend my time watching christmas movies and wasting away the days on pinterest (greatest. invention. EVER.). i hope everyone else has a suuuuuuuuuuper holiday! merry christmas and much love!
