F.R.I.E.N.D.S

Does anybody else want to break out into song when they read the title of this post?  No?  Just me?  Well anyway.  I'm pretty lucky and have made some awesome friends over my life.  For real.  If you are friends with any of my friends, then you are lucky too!  So I'm just going to do a little shout-out to those people who have been there for me and who make my life better.

*My Sisters:
I didn't always get along with them, now I loooooove spending time with them.  We all have the same warped sense of humor, so we laugh at the same stupid jokes.

*Manda Jo:
Amanda and I are cousins.  And we didn't really become REAL friends until I was like 16 or 17.  Now there is no one who knows me better than she does.  She is the person I call when I am having a bad day and the person who knows what to say to make me feel better.  She is the one who I stay up until 3 in the morning with doing stupid things like making music videos to *NSYNC and Eminem...don't judge us.

*My High School Girlies - Britt, Rosey, Nat, Kylee, Shanna, Rachel, Jamie:
The only people in the history of the world who can get me to start running...a feat not to be attempted by any other person.  These girls are in some of my happiest memories.  And even though every single one of them are married and 3 of them have babies, when the girls get together, it is just like it always has been.

(Only missing Nat and Rach...where were youuuuu???)

*Melissa and Kendall:
2 of my best friends from college.  Kendall and I were roommates, and Melissa lived upstairs.  I think I am still trying to catch up on sleep from Freshman year.  Our personalities just go super well together, we just kinda mesh.  We've been through college, single life, marriage, divorce, moving, deployments, and babies and still get along swimmingly.  I still see them at least once a month (until now since Kendall has moved to Reno).

*The crazy soccer playing girls:
I loooooooved living with my soccer-playing roommates.  They were so much fun...fun enough that I decided to subject myself to living with them a second year.  I have more inside jokes with these girls than with almost any of my other friends.

*Jared:
I met Jared about a week before my very first year of college.  We were in the same "Connections" class...the best college class I ever had.  There was a group of us that were the cool kids in school.  Jared and I instantly became friends.  Since there were 3 girls of the same name in that class, I was dubbed "Loud Chelsee", since I was the most outgoing.  After Connections ended, we went on all sorts of crazy adventures.  Freshman year rocked.  When he left on his mission, I wrote him every week and was the best friend a missionary could have.  Now he is all married and stuff, but every once in awhile, we still get to have our little heart to hearts.  I love Jared dearly and I am so glad that he found someone who appreciates how awesome he is.

*The Lovely Sarah:
Who knew you could become such good friends with a person who randomly sat by you in class one day?  Our friendship developed over us both liking the same guy (at different times, and for about a day each).  Then we spent one glorious summer together filled with burning things given to us by stupid boys, the Bachelor, camp fires, Chili's chips and queso, and the zoo before she went and got herself hitched.  I don't get to see her that much, but I still think of her as one of my best friends.

*Koby Leian:
My newest bestie.  This girl rocks.  There are times my stomach hurts from laughing so much.  She helps me break out of my shell and do things that I normally wouldn't do.  She is such a sweet person and would do anything for anyone (unless you talk about her family), and she helps me want to be a better person too.  Plus she has the coolest southern accent that makes it so much to listen to her.

*My favorite Facebook friend: Kasie
Not many people understand my love for FRIENDS like Kasie does.  We can quote the show like it's nobody's business.  My favorite is when I got onto the FB and have a notification from her because I know it is going to be a line from one of my favorite episodes.  She rocks.

*My blogging buddies - Kateka, Katie, Emily, Carly, Annika, Chelsea, Heather, Sarah, Caroline (wassup DC!), Erin, Lindsey, Amy, Mega, Natalie and all of you others who read my pitiful blog (some of you already got a shout out...you don't get another):
I probably wouldn't write this thing if it wasn't for the validation all of you give me.  Haha I love all of your crazy comments and appreciate your bloghood.  And I loooooooove reading your blogs.  Blog stalking was the whole reason I got a blog in the first place!

If you are not mentioned, don't get mad...just hang out with me more!  :)

Peace and love.  The end.

trying a little harder to be a little better...

I love to make new friends.  Seriously, it is one of my favorite things.  And I am pretty good at it, too (sometimes too good at it).  I think it is because I try not to be judgmental of the way people live their lives.

Recently, I have been feeling...off, maybe?  Just kinda feeling like I am not being the best person I can be.  And as I got looking into my life, I could see the things that were bringing me down.  A lot of things hindering me are things that I need to fix for myself.  But some of it comes from some people I have in my life.  And that makes me really sad because it is people that I spend a lot of time with, people who I am really good friends with.  And it's not like the negative things they do are HUGE things, it's all the small stuff...the swearing, the inappropriateness, the leniency with some of the standards that the Church encourages.  But all of the little things add up, and it is causing me some stress and bringing me down.

It makes me sad, but I think that I need to start purging/phasing out some of these people from my life. I am trying to make myself be the best Chelsee there is, and to do that I can't have things bringing me down.  I'm not saying I will cut them out of my life completely, because they are people that I love dearly.  But I think it is time to move on.  In the movie "This Means War" (hilarious.  I highly recommend it), Chelsea Handler encourages Reese Witherspoon to not choose the better guy, but to choose that guy that makes her a better person.  And I think it is the same with friends, too.  They should uplift and inspire, not bring us down and make us feel negative.

One reason I want to make myself better is because I 100% have no idea how to be the kind of person that guys want to date.  Like I said up there, I am REALLY good at making friends, but it never translates to something more.  Ever.  For real.  But I figure I better just make myself all the way awesome so if/when/if it does happen, I am ready for it.  This whole not dating thing has taken a huge toll on me and has hit my self-esteem hard.  So I am trying to not focus on it, and just focus on me.  I kinda suck at it, but I'm trying.

So, all of you who have already caught yourself a man, give me some man-catching advice.  K thanks. :)

The end.

As of late...

I really like my job.  It kinda rocks.  I got a raise the other day.  It was the fastest any person in the company has been given a raise.  I like feeling needed.  I like feeling useful.  I like getting up and getting ready every day.  I like the people I work with.  They are all pretty great.  I like the company.  It is honest and legitimate.  They treat people well.

I like my friends.  I have been bowling a lot.  I still kinda suck at it.  But I'm getting better.  I like having people to do things with on the weekends.  I like staying out way later than I should.  I like my ward.  I like my new bishopric a lot.  I like the people I know in the ward.  I like my calling of sports co-chair.  I like playing volleyball with my ward every Tuesday and playing basketball on Saturdays.  

I hate running.  I don't know why I decided to run in this dang relay race.  But I am trying.  I guess that is all that matters.  I am excited to run with Brit, Nat, and Rosey.  I do miss them.  That is the whole reason why I am running.  Freaking race.

RANT TIME.

I am going to just let off some steam about Josh Powell.  I know everyone has an opinion on the subject, and since this is my blog, I am going to voice my opinion here.  My apologies if I swear and it offends.  Although he deserves worse than any word I could say.  For my very few readers outside of Utah, if you don't know why Josh Powell is, here is a link with some information that will lead to all the gory details. http://usnews.msnbc.msn.com/_news/2012/02/07/10339866-report-powell-left-apologetic-voicemail-minutes-before-death

When I first heard that Josh Powell blew up his house with his boys inside on Sunday, I almost threw up.  I was so angry.  I didn't know I could be so angry at a person I had never met.  But all I felt was rage.  And then on Monday when I found out that he used a hatchet to chop up the little boys before he set the house on fire, no lie, I felt like murdering someone.  I am so 100% disgusted, as I am sure that most everyone is.

Now here is where my opinion comes in.  I fully believe that the State of Washington is partly responsible for this.  I know that it was that sick bastard's actions that caused it, but I don't think that he should have even been able to see his kids at all.  West Valley Police Chief said "As the only person of interest in the Susan Cox Powell case, I don't think he should have been able to see his kids at all."  And I completely agree with this statement.  When Washington State found evidence of child pornography, I think that right there should have suspended all rights to his children.  Why is that safe for the boys?  

I think that Josh Powell did this selfish, evil act thinking he would go down in infamy, that his name would be remembered.  All people will remember him as now is a sick, murdering son of a bitch that is going to rot in hell.

I am a little bit disgusted, can you tell?  :)  But that's enough of my rant.  I am going to go back to work now.